Racism – Police Brutality

Racism, unfortunately, is still within America and it seems to be towards black people, especially with the police. This is one concept I never have and will never understand. I can’t seem to wrap my head around the fact that people get harassed, shamed, beaten, and even killed everyday for simply being black.

What is racism? 

  • Racism is prejudice, discrimination, or antagonism directed against someone of a different race based on the belief that one’s own race is superior. 

In 2017, police killed 1,129 people, and out of those 1,129 people who were killed, 27% were Black. in 2017 on average 631 officers were responding to non-violent offenses or when no crime had been reported at all. 87 people killed had been stopped for a traffic violation. A simple traffic violation, no reason to escalate the situation yet 87 human being lost their lives because many police choose to escalate the situation INSTEAD of de-escalating it like they’re supposed to be trained to do. Most of the unarmed individuals that were killed happened to be people of color, 48 of them were black, and that’s only of the reported instances, that’s also not counting the instances where the police were responsible for the death of an individual but it got covered up. In 2017 there were ONLY 14 days when no one was killed by a cop. How insane is that? out of 365 days there were ONLY 14 days that a human being wasn’t killed at the hands of an officer of the law.

58 hours, that’s the amount of hours police spend training with fire arms, that is 7X longer than they dedicate to de-escalation training. WHY? Shouldn’t they be PROTECTING us? Isn’t that what they are paid to do? Wouldn’t de-escalation be the more efficient and beneficial route? well, NOT IF YOU’RE A RACIST PIG.

Now, I’m not saying that all cops are like this because they aren’t all racist pieces of shit, but a good portion of them are. BUT, how can you tell? Maybe the racist cops should wear a special symbols so we can tell. They’re killing off the race they don’t like, sounds a bit familiar does it? Reminds me of 1933 to 1945, if you don’t know the time period and it’s significance just look it up real quick and you’ll see why I say that.

I’m tired of seeing my fellow human beings being treated like this, tired of them losing their lives, tired of seeing them be harassed JUST BECAUSE OF THE COLOR OF THEIR SKIN. SO if I’m tired of it, can you IMAGINE how they feel? They get stopped ALL THE TIME for literally nothing other than because they are of color. Can you imagine being harassed for simple walking? or eating? or even just walking into YOUR OWN HOME and ending up shot dead for NO good reason.


We are ALL human beings, why can’t we ALL be treated the same? And WHY IS THE GOVERNMENT LETTING IT HAPPEN??????

I’ll never understand this and I’ll never stop fighting for what is right, equality for EVERY single human being, no matter the race, sexuality, or religion. We are ALL human beings and we NEED to stand up for our fellow beings, period.

Until next time,


Simple hello

Hello humans! I hope you’re all having a good Monday. It’s the beginning of the week and I’m already ready for Friday!

This is the kind of attitude I hope will diminish within time, I hate feeling like the weekdays last 2 million years long. Hopefully the days will go by quickly while at work! So many positive vibes out to all the beings out there.

Until next time,


Dreams –

I recently had a really good conversation with someone VERY close to me and it honestly made me feel so much lighter and happier. I’m starting back on my photography, something I absolutely love.

I’ve always struggled with knowing what it was that really ignited the fire within me. Then again, I hadn’t ever really sat down and thought about it. I’ve always been very supportive of others and their dreams that I forget to focus time on myself and my dreams.

As of right now my main focuses are yoga and photography.

I really want to get in touch with my body, learn to know what it needs, how to flow gracefully, how to position my poses correctly with the minimum chance of injury.

I also really want to learn more about my camera and get my Instagram page for that going. I’m hoping I’ll be able to pull in some people and potentially start a business with it (maybe, possibly, not sure yet).

I’m learning to have patience with myself again and slow down. I’m trying to live my best life and live my truth so we’ll see where this journey takes me.

ps- follow me on Instagram: @zoeannntaylor_ or my personal with only two n’s 😊

Until next time,



That Seasonal Bitch

One thing that is extremely clear to me now, is that seasonal depression is no joke. I’ve had my fair share of emotional phases but seasonal depression is, pardon my french, a total bitch. You think you’re fine, you think things are okay and then it slowly creeps its way up until you feel like you’re stuck.


What is seasonal depression?

Seasonal affective disorder (SAD) is a type of depression that’s related to changes in seasons — SAD begins and ends at about the same times every year. If you’re like most people with SAD, your symptoms start in the fall and continue into the winter months, sapping your energy and making you feel moody. Less often, SAD causes depression in the spring or early summer. ( https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/seasonal-affective-disorder/symptoms-causes/syc-20364651 )


  • Feeling depressed most of the day, nearly every day
  • Losing interest in activities you once enjoyed
  • Having low energy
  • Having problems with sleeping
  • Experiencing changes in your appetite or weight
  • Feeling sluggish or agitated
  • Having difficulty concentrating
  • Feeling hopeless, worthless or guilty
  • Having frequent thoughts of death or suicide


I have personally always had an issue with anxiety and earlier on in life, depression was definitely a part of who I was for a while. As I’ve gotten older I’ve grown and been through the motions but lately I’m realizing that the seasons have something to do with my mood.

This is where I say seasonal depression is a total bitch — I worked for a long time towards a better, happier me and I thought I had finally gotten there; I was in a good mood when I woke up, had no issues waking up, I was carrying out acts of self care daily, practicing self-love daily, I was active and went on walks EVERY chance I got, I started practicing yoga, I didn’t feel drowsy throughout the day, I was going on adventures, hanging out with friends, indulging myself in photography, and I finally met someone worth my time.

Now, lets go back to around September/October 2017, when my mood began shifting. It was subtle at first, so subtle I didn’t even realize what was going on. I started having a harder time getting out of bed in the morning, I was sleepy all throughout the day, I either slept too much or not enough, I noticed changed in my eating habits and I started to turn away from water and chose soda instead 9 times out of 10, staying concentrated on any one thing was a task all on it’s own. I couldn’t understand how I had gone from feeling at peace and feeling genuinely happy with an intense amount of patience to almost no patience at all, and feeling so down and exhausted.

Fast forward to the current day, it’s April (2018) and the weather it starting to get better, still cold days in here and there but the season is finally beginning to change. I cannot tell you how excited I am to get back to my happy self, and this time I intend on trying to beat seasonal depression’s ass the next time it tries to kick mine.


STAY FOCUSED ON YOUR HEALTH, that means mentally, emotionally, and physically.

SELF CARE IS IMPORTANT, take a warm bath every once in a while, a face mask, anything. Make sure you’re doing things that make you feel good.

STAY ACTIVE, staying active is a healthy way to look your best, feel your best, and reduce stress!

Until next time,


It could be

Slowly healing.

Slowly watching my sisters really begin the healing process.

Angrily watching as the people around me show no interest in the safety of the children and in general people.

People don’t get it.

They don’t understand.

It’s easy when you’re not the one taking the bullet.

It’s easy when the people you love haven’t been shaken to the core with death staring them in the face.

But it could be you next.

It could be.

And THAT is why you should care.

Petty petty people

I find it mildly annoying that grown women act like high school students, especially in the workplace. There is ONE women at my job in particular that will taddle on you for THE pettiest things. Stop acting like you’re grown up because you have kids and pay bills. Instead of preaching about how “older folks are wiser” how about you actually BE mature and stop taddling on everyone for petty things like a fifth grader.


After the Parkland, FL shooting I posted a tweet with a simple picture and captioned it “this speaks volumes”. Since then, I have gotten over a thousand likes, retweets, and quite a few responses. Some of these responses were people attacking me for it. It was a picture of someone picking out a card in a card isle, the label for the cards at the very top read “Mass School Shooting Condolence Cards”. This picture, to me, shows where America is right now, school shootings are the “norm”, mass shootings are the “norm”, and they shouldn’t be.

People are losing their lives. Innocent lives are being ended for no good reason, and we’re letting it happen. We push these situations under the mat after handing over our “Thoughts and Prayers”. Thoughts and prayers aren’t going to bring back those innocent lives. Thoughts and prayers aren’t going to detraumatize those who were there when these instances happen, or their families who thought their loves ones were gone forever. Thoughts and prayers aren’t going to soothe the mother and father who just lost their child.


We need to pay attention to those around us, parents need to pay attention to their children, mental health needs to be paid attention to ALWAYS, not just when something happens, and these politicians need to stop funding the NRA who doesn’t give two shits about the lives of the Americans who are losing their lives due to senseless gun violence. We can’t stop every shooting from happening, violence is a thing and that won’t go away, but we can certainly make weapons of war such as the AK-15 less available. There will always be guns in the streets, that’s just how it is, but how many of these school shooters or mass shooters were mentally disturbed (in some way). Also, since 1982, 54% of the 97 mass shootings have been carried out by white men. Black men accounted for roughly 16% of the total incidents during the same period of time. However, the vast majority of white gun violence often results in pleading mental illness. Why are white gunman often seen as just being mentally ill yet other races would be seen as terrorists or criminals? Why is it so easy for a white male to get away with ending countless innocent lives? Why is it so easy for ANYONE to get away with ending countless lives?

This is where we ALL come in, we NEED to change things, we NEED to be the change we want to see in the world, we NEED to VOTE THEM OUT!

Until next time,